Wow. I am getting married in 200 days. Now, that seems like it is still a really long ways off, but at the same time I know that its going to go by so quickly and will be here before I know it.
I am so ready to be married. I am excited that I get to spend the rest of my life with the one I love, and go through all of life's ups and downs by his side. But at the same time I wonder if I'm truly ready to be a wife. That is such a large responsibility. I mean just look at all of the numerous passages in scripture that dictate a wife's responsibilities. Reading these passages sometimes gets me discouraged. I feel as if I often fall short of these images. And somedays it seems as if I'll never get there.
It is my heart's desire to be the kind of wife that the Bible talks about. I long to be that for Mark, and to be able to be the kind of love and support system that he needs. Sometimes I just don't feel like I'm ready. I know that our love is strong and that we will be able to work through anything that comes our way. But at the same the time I feel as if I have a long way to go until I can get to this Biblical picture of "the perfect wife". Sometimes I feel as if my own selfish desires and my great amount of stubbornness gets in the way of me achieving this. Sometimes it seems like I will never be the perfect wife, because lets face it. I'm human and I make A LOT of mistakes. Despite all of these feelings, I still long to be the best wife that I possibly can be.
It will take work, and lots of dedication. But I am ready to devote myself to him, he is my everything and he deserves that kind of attention from me. I know that I am not going to automatically be the perfect wife. But I'm committed to becoming as close to that Biblical image as I possibly can be.
Love is not just a feeling, it takes work. And marriage is not always going to be a walk in the park, its a committment that takes dedication. But we have God on our side, and I know that with Him all things are possible. And He will help me become this wife that we hear so much about throughout the scriptures.
Dray, you will be a fantastic wifey! You are already on your way there by thinking of how thoughtful you want to be and how you desire to look to God on how to be a wonderful wife for Mark! And you are correct these 200 days will fly by, enjoy this time!
ReplyDeleteYou are so articulate. It's funny to think that the girl I grew up with can write like this-and about such things as well! I'm still finding it hard to believe! 200 days! You will make an excellent wife, especially since you are applying yourself to scripture now. To me, that's a clear indicator. Blessings to you both!
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